Yo natalie!

hey natalie!

Random Me-Made Comic

I made this all by myself on paint! (Click it to see it full screen)

Jabber

I'm suprised but I have a bunch of stuff to talk about. First of all, on Friday night my mom and Spencer and I watched part of the English movie "Hogfather" and all of "Enchanted" Much of yesterday and some of today have been spent fiddling around with Pivot, a somewhat botchy stick figure animation program. I've just been playing around with it due to my boredom. It appears Emma and Eric will not be recieving any guff, from me at least, at school on Monday. Assuming that Emma, you purple monkey friend you, posts. Hmm. What else was I gonna say. Oh ya! I just finished three bowls of honey nut cheerios and I believe that I may soon vomit. I feel like there was something else I was gonna say earlier but now I don't remember.

Water Once a Week

Emma's and Eric's blogs have shriveled up from disuse. Like the plant that you bought but forgot to water. The once pretty "petals" or words of your blogs have fallen and the green of your leaves is no longer bright and alive. Oh no. Your poor sad unhappy neglected blogs! Shame! Shamey! Shame! Shame! And what am I supposed to do over here at my lonely blog. At least Mr. Carter still posts! And he actually makes time to do it even though he has papers to grade and what not! Shaaaame Emma and Eric! I bet they won't even read this though. Eric is most likely shuning himself from the blogosphere. Emma apparently has nothing to post about. I post at least 2 or 3 times a week about stupid or boring stuff. At least post that's my motto. Ok well I don't have a motto. (Frankly I'm to lazy to find one that fits me appropriately) I feel like the only person left of our little group of blogosphere kids. Ok tweens. Teens if you must. Today I went to the main event with Laura and Sophia. Tons of fun! I got me a big purple bunny, a stuffed lobster, a stuffed ladybug key-chain, and a koala clippy thing. And I got my hair spray-painted pink! I have to say it looks good on me. (I think I'm becoming a narcissist) Anyway going back to the old school with all the little kiddies made me feel "old". I'm not supposed to feel "old" yet!!! It made me feel like a dreaded "teen". Gasp! I think it's my tallness. I dunno but I was looking in the mirror and recently whenever I look in the mirror I'm like whoa! I look older. And now my eyes are drying out because I, for some reason, don't blink when I'm typing. G'night. Actually if I'm focusing or something I don't blink. I really don't remember to blink a lot so my eyes get all dry and I have to shut them for awhile. I've been thinking I might like to get contacts but because of this blinking problem my contacts would likely dry out very often. G'night!

This Is Not Right!!!

An hour ago I was out running(in short shorts and a sweatshirt may I add) and now it's snowing. Big clustered together clumpy snowflakes. This is not right! It is supposed to be spring! How odd this weather is. Ok now that's weird. Just as I'm getting ready to type more the snow stopped. That only lasted like 30 seconds! Okay very odd!

Joe: Hey Bob.

Bob: Hey Joe.

Joe: Weird weather we're having eh?(Joe gestures towards the window where it's snowing and there's lightning but it's sunny out)

Bob: Eh? Where are you from Canada?


I have no clue why I just wrote that. Maybe it's because I'm tired. Weird eh?

Pant* Pant* GASP*

Pant* Pant* I'm SOOO tired! My legs hurt. 1 lap, stretches, drills(which consist of cherry pickers, jump skippy things, more jump skippy things, and sprinting, and other stuff), high jump, 8 100s(100 meter dash), 1 lap, hurdles. That was my track practice, and I probably sound like a wimp but still. I'm tired! My legs are very sore. Tonight we have the Fiddler on the Roof party from 7 to 9 but I'm so tired I don't want to go. I just want to lay down watch some tv and gently fall asleep. No more standing for me! Or anything else that involves using my legs. My predicament though is that my mom is helping out at the party but even if I don't go she'll still go and it'll be awkward. I think I'm gonna go take a nap.

Jumping

Come on people! Where is everyone? Neither Emma nor Eric have posted recently. Tsk! I, most wonderful person that I am, have kept up my posting amidst my schoolwork and doing the play and now track! (joking!) Oh ya! Track!!! Woots! Track is so fun. I had a lot of debate over whether or not I should do it and I'm very happy about my decision on joining. I'm in it along with Sheen and Natalie and many others I know. I mainly like it so much because it's way easier than cross country. Well, from my standpoint. Today was a great day for me in track. I discovered two new fun things. We got to try doing hurdles and doing the high jump thing where you jump over a horizontal pole and land on a big cushion thing. At first with hurdles I doubted I'd get it, but it was actually super easy! That got me really pumped so I definitely want to do hurdles at all costs. Then with the high jump thing the first time I tried I didn't quite get over. The second time I got over except I jumped with both feet instead of just one. But still! I'm happy 'cause I actually got over. I have to say, I liked doing those things better than running because I didn't get as tired. I'd rather do the hurdles instead of just running because the hurdles include running and jumping. Overall it was a good day for track. And the nice weather was a plus too.

Already Thought Of

I was just looking up windpowered cars and I(obviously) have not been the first to think of such things. I'm just suprised they aren't more known. It seems though that most designs are not very fast. Just thought I'd update you!

Two Thoughts to Offer

Okay so I'm bored so I guess I'll tell you of my two latest ideas. First I was thinking about all the new ideas for powering cars because Mr. E my science teacher has talked with our class a few times about new fuel sources such as hydrogen fuels and cooking oil for fuel. We've also somewhat recently learned about plans for windmills to be set up or something and that sparked an idea for me. Why not have a car that is a third wind powered and two thirds biofuel. Or even better a third biofuel, a third solar powered, and a third wind powered. Either way they could have a sort of mini windmill propeller thingy(you know...the fan) on the front of the car. I think it'd be best to have two on there but one would probably be simpler. Anyway they'd be situated in these sort of indents in the front of the car. Once the car is started with fuel or solar energy wind of course is created because you're moving forward and there you go it turns the propellers like a windmill and creates energy. I'm thinking about pondering this idea further and actually trying to figure out how the engine of a car really works and how windmills work. I mean you'd think something like this would exist it seems so simple, but it probably isn't. My other plan which is something actually I will be doing. I'm going to go to Goodwill and buy a bunch of clothes. Whatever I see that inspires me, any big colors, and size doesn't really matter unless it's too small. Anyway with these skirts and shirts and pants I'm gonna cut them and stitch them into different styles and maybe sew them together. I think it'd be fun. I've always wanted to do some kind of sewing clothing but I haven't felt like doing all that fitting sort of stuff and it just seems so complicated. But this I can easily do. Anyway there you have it. My current thoughts.

O. Wait... OOOOH! Also...Fiesta!

OOOOOH! I get it! Am I like eric because I haven't been posting? Well here I am! What have I to say? Ah yes how about FOTR. Most of you know that Laura, Eric, and I are in the school play "Fiddler on the Roof". My main part is as an evil spirit in a scene where Tevye the father of five girls is trying to explain a dream he's made up to his wife that will get him out of trouble for allowing his eldest daughter to marry the man she loves and not the guy who they recently had arranged for her to marry. I'm in a bunch of other scenes except I'm a background villager. Yesterday we had the understudy performance and it was a ton of fun. I had a great time and I just can't wait to do our performances on Friday and Saturday. I'm really happy about Friday for not only the performances but also because we're doing our Fiesta! project day thing. In the morning we're presenting posterboards that we made in groups. Each posterboard is about a specific South American country. Then were getting the team awards, playing games, cleaning out lockers, and watching a movie during lunch which will be hard and soft tacos from Qdoba. Yay! Fun day right?

I Feels It a Comin'

Spring's a comin'! I can feels in me right big toe! Ooh it's gonna be a good spring too. I knows it!



I'm really happy. I don't know why, and I don't know how, but I'm happy. Like last last Thursday I had the first actually happy day I've had in a long time. Well an actually happy day when I've had school and not been with friends to get my mind off of things. Plus even when I'm with my friends I get sad at some point or another about my dad. Being happy at school for me is big 'cause usually I just have all this time to be tired and think and be bored, but I was actually happy. I really don't take joy for granted anymore. One moment you feel creative and jovial and the next your peace of mind slips from your grasp and falls flat on the ground. So often am I sad that when I'm happy or excited or content I'm all around even happier just because I'm any mood but melancholy. It doesn't really matter to me why I'm happy it's just that usually I'm in a bored or sad mood and I've been waiting and wishing for actual happiness that lasts and doesn't disappear after a little bit. I may sound loony but it feels soooo good to be in a good mood when you haven't been in one for awhile. I think it's spring that's a helpin' me feels happy, especially the pretty red tulips. I gots me some pretty red tulips in the kitchen a days agos from Sam's Club and we putsed 'em in a pertty vase that mades 'em look all modern and placed just right and nature beautiful tulipy flowerish.

Unfortunately happiness doesn't last forever. But thats okay because I'm happy right now and that's what matters.

Also, a lot of people think I'm over my dad's death because of my happiness and that kind of bugs me. I want everyone to be able to know that I still love him and miss him a ton. It's excruciatingly painful. It's awful. But I'm not gonna let that keep me down forever or even at all. I hate being sad. After feeling so unhappy it feels so glorious to be happy so that I try to stay happy. It seems kind of like some people think, I'm not sure, that I'm maybe a bad person or just weird or something for being happy even though my dad has died, or that I didn't love my dad because I'm still happy sometimes even though he's gone. And you know it isn't like that. I miss my dad terribly. It's just that when I'm happy I want to let it out and joke around and actually feel normal again. Some people ask if I still miss him as if I wouldn't still miss him since I'm so happy sometimes recently and it bugs me because it's like I have to justify my actions or my emotions. I still miss my dad!!! Okay? But I'm not going to be a depressed idiot all the time if that's what you think death should do to people. And if that is what you think then you've got it all wrong. If you've had someone die who you love I think you may be able to relate to the fact that it makes you sad and it makes you want, or at least with me, it makes me want desperately to be happy. To feel happy, and normal, and not cry. And you know, it gets annoying when someone can't control that competitive sort of nature that we all have when we're talking about how I've recovered after my dad's death. I mean I've had people say to me "Oh, well my this person had this person die and it took them 2 years to get over it." Okay well I don't care because I don't need to know how long it took them to, how you think, "get over it". Like anyone who's had a loved one die I have not yet and will never ever "get over it", I will always miss them but that will not stop me from living my life and being who I am.

Ya

Guys as in regular bloggers (Laura, Emma, Sheen, Soph, Eric, and Natalie) this isn't bout you guys. Infact I don't think any of you know what this is about. I'm just venting about someone else. I have it out of my system now. (PS Banana chips rock deliciously.)

Oh and you know what else?

My friends mean a lot to me. Their sympathy means a lot to me too. It will never sound fake to me. Your sympathy? Worthless.

Does It Ever End?

I feel betrayed
Shivering annoyed
Should have seen it coming
I don't write
Because of school poetry
But because it's what I've always done
So don't add that to the end
And don't talk about me
Like that
You don't understand death
You're just too stupid and too immature
You don't understand poetry or venting
Because you don't understand death
I was always afraid I would be talked about
And now my past poetry doesn't feel as good
You don't stop at anyone
Cliquish ways are your downfall
And you can talk to them about this
And say ooo she's weird
I don't care
Just don't talk about his death
And about how I let out

Hum-di-dum-dum-doh

I'm feeling very creative. So far today I've made a Jaguar paper mosaic(for school but I enjoyed it), a mini paper volano with a small aluminum foil tube in it that I can with with baking soda and vinager(although I can't completely remember if the vinager reacts with baking powder or baking soda), I think I might go on a walk with my camera later and take some pictures. I also plan on working on some poetry later too. Even though I'm thinking of this stuff I can do I'm still kind of bored. I have nothing really interesting to do. My mom thinks we should go see a movie, but I don't really feel like it. I would like to see the new movie out "Penelope" or maybe "The Spiderwick Chronicles" but I just haven't felt like going and seeing a movie for awhile now. I gotta think of something really fun to do because right now still boredish.