I'm posting too much. Oh well.

I am definitely posting way too much. It makes me feel a ton better when I post and recently I have been have an overflow over depressing sad thoughts, and other emotions. I love music you know? It makes me feel so free to listen to the music I love. Listen to In Other Words by Ben Kweller on youtube or something. Great song. I love it. Today I have been very sad and really just sad altogether recently. I just wish I could get rid of my saddness for awhile. I miss my dad soooo badly right now. Like my mind keeps telling me go find dad and talk to him. I want so badly to see him lying in my parents bed watching tv and preparing for the super bowl. I just want to go in and lie down next to him, and silently watch tv. He'd of course as usual be flipping channels. Maybe we'd start a conversation. I amnow crying. Just thought I'd let you know. Summer Hearts by Nik Freitas is playing on my pandora station. It's pretty. I miss my dad so much. I feel like I'll puke. I hate this it hurts so much. So badly. And there's nothing I can dod about it. I can't stop my emotions or anything. I miss him. I want to see him so badly. I want to. Oh I really wish I could. So, so, so much. I want to talk to him, and hug him, and tell him I love him. Still crying*...